Conversation with God, Feb 18

I didn't want to share this. Mostly because it's 'jumbly' for the lack of a better word and filling in the blanks left by my sleep-deprived self seemed false. However, I'm pushed to share each of these conversations so nearly five weeks after the experience, here we are..

Where there are blanks, I'll share how I've filled them in with understandings that evolved from the 18th. When understanding hasn't come, I'll share that, too.

This conversation began around 12:44 AM when I couldn't sleep. It began with a discussion of my return to the healing work and my skepticism. My own commentary is in bold. The rest is God's voice.

"Follow our lead" re: my own mental to-do list, doing 'all the things' re: marketing, advertising, etc. I was very clearly told to not force anything, not to do it my way

"Let me create"

I wrote "$=0" and don't know what my bleery-brained self was repeating but I think that I was being told that was not my concern. A few days prior to this mid-night conversation, another voice said, 'wordly concerns aren't yours" and separate vision with a gargoyle said the same thing: that (meaning financial stuff), is not your concern. (A fact I argued because life...)

"I showed you one way; now I'm showing you another"

Also: "you don't control", "My way. Accept."

"There's more than one role"

"Reward illegible" No idea

"store" Also unclear. It was something to do with either a) going back to the hardware store or, b) not going back to the hardware store.

"You are The Living Water"

"Write"

"You may very well be Sufi" This is related to me exploring why I've been directed to a particular Muslim teacher. There's a lot around this that I won't include here other than to say, "No. I'm not Sufi."

"Follow."

"Don't run. Don't hide." This is directly to the dual evolution of all things Sinaloa-cartel and me as well as the unveiling and naming of this being I am made to be.

"Tell the story"

"Go to Ridgway. Spend. Stop the measuring" This is another admonition to stop doing the constant math related to 'not having enough'. I'm constantly subtracting from available monies and using that as the measure of having enough/not having enough.

"East Africa is happening"

"Get disciplined with your body"

"Accept the visions at face value, as truth" repeating the theme of 'see, do'.

"Let me lead. I am The Weaver"

"You are safe."

"Each step give way to me"

"Rent is paid" Except to me, it wasn't. I had to seek it for it to appear and that confused me greatly.

"Until you're in the flow, let me"

"The path is laid"

"_________ pulling thread"

"Cede the way"

"Let the goodness flow without fear"

"Practice joy (within you). Stop trying to give me limitations."

"All is well. Nurture people put on your path"

"There's a reason you're begin reintroduced this way, with them"

I wrote "dog + market dog" but have no idea why.

"Hold openness steady"

"Notice, just watch people's generosity"

"Don't fight or try to understand--flow, just flow"

"See, do" See the visions, follow the direction.

"It's as simple as the healing"

"Notice the responses"

"People with you on purpose, they're not lying" This is in response to my questions about Ancestral interactions and my doubts around veracity of 'danger, will robison' signaling, where human remains are illicitly buried, and more.

"See and know. Period."

"Stop arguing with cactus." Y'all this is a thing. It's a relationship that began in 2021 when I was in Sierra Vista, Arizona, surrounded by cartel activity and every step outside and every step inside was measured by a danger level that I couldn't see --wouldn't be able to see--until the spring of 2022. It's an expression of my relationships with plants and other things of the ground. A cactus would not have been my choice for a teacher but, boy howdy...he's undeniable and I do argue when I think he's being unreasonable.

This continued: "They are teacher, teachers like you are to others. If something not 'true' later, it has a purpose in the moment [beyond your judgement]. Judge not, it's not personal. This is bigger than you. They see broader than you.'

"Cede the way. You are stepping into your power. Your power is my power."

"Use your body to creat the center. Centeredness flows from that."

"The Spanish is for everything; there will be more; pay for the Pro (later). Re: my refusal to pay Duolingo because it all feels freaking pointless.

"The next time we show you boxes, start packing"

Then as I eased back to sleep, a vision stream started.

What's mssing here is my end of the conversation. I didn't ease back toward sleep until nearly 4AM. There was a lot of back and forth, mostly with my right eyebrow up.